i am a haunted house
and i am the owner coming home after a 20 year vacation
turn on the light it remains dark
open the door and it falls off the hinges
trip off my own panic trigger
as I walk on through
creak in the floor I spin around
there’s nothing there but I pull floorboards dig until I’ve found the earth beneath me
can’t sleep in my own damn home
so i take the fear and find the rhythm in it
been a year since it’s been so bad
i try and remember how i got through it
every heart beat feels like an earthquake
that rumbles and cracks until i fall in it
i know I have been alive,
i remember the ache
every time I try to feel
feels like I’m gonna break
every feeling that I’ve ignored
comes back as a ghost
all screaming in native tongue
claiming me as their home
i know I have been alive
i remember the ache
every time I try to feel
feels like I’m going to break