I think I’m most frustrated with the limitations I put on myself based upon past experiences. I won’t do B because A happened to me and it burned. Which is… everyone’s experience, I think. We limit our experiences to maintain comfort. But the limitations often cause us just as much mental torment as the potential risk would cause. So why do we do?
I think it is ease. It is easier to keep doing what we have done to feel safe, rather than take the risk. With the risk comes the panic. But with the ease–the frustration.
Frustration feels more manageable than panic. And if we keep our frustration in our peripheral it can feel like we are working towards alleviating the problem, which makes us feel okay with the looped effort. But I think the real process is simply micro-dosing on the panic of taking the risk. Slow and small scary steps.