…about however much I feel like I want to “be seen”- I also want to hide and be invisible. I’ve been thinking about the next song I’ll be releasing. About having my own space. About the fear I still feel that is residual from my upbringing and not something I really want to feel. The interconnectedness of fear and shame. About how when things are going okay/well in my life, I’m on edge because I’m thinking, “okay!!!! could be any minute now.” And it is almost better if I make it go bad, rather than someone else doing it. Thinking about the limitations I have on my own joy. About how some people appear to be so liberated that it feels impossible.