I sat in silence for ten minutes before pulling out the keyboard.

Not listening or watching anything in particular. Just letting my thoughts happen. Watching as if it were a busy intersection, and I’m waiting for a bus. Not the bus, just any bus.

Maybe I’m not even waiting.

When I don’t set aside time to pull myself out of my thoughts, I get swamped.

I feel so close to them it’s hard to breathe. I get overwhelmed by a single feeling, because in a moment I am the feeling, and the feeling is future and past and what could have been if the feeling never existed. I imagine all the possibilities, and because I imagine them I become them. Chaotic. So, sometimes I need to take time to just to watch the thoughts and feelings roll by.